Oh the drama some people bring!

Last week after lunch with a dear friend we got to talking about a subject I had never thought of before and it has become new, thought-provoking and even a little exciting to think about.

My friend told me about a friend of hers that brings high drama everywhere and seems to thrive in that kind of atmosphere and how it was so wearisome to her. I agree….I really do not like dramatic people (dramatic in a negative, ‘it’s all about me’, and no-one-has-it-harder-than-me way) and am always amazed and mystified by the people who seemingly thrive on it, and thus create it in their own lives on some level. My friend was praying about the situation she was in with “Drama Friend” and found herself asking Jesus if he ever had to deal with any drama from others. Right away she was reminded of the time He and his guys (the disciples) were arguing about who would be the greatest when he was gone. Good grief! Talk about drama!

I immediately thought of the verse that tells us He was tempted in all points that we will ever be and yet did not ever sin SO THAT he could then faithfully and with total understanding, awareness, empathy and remembrance of how each temptation felt (I don’t believe he has forgotten one single feeling of what it felt like to live down here) pray for and interceed for us in our temptations. In light then of my conversation that day, we realized that this would have been another area he was most definitely tempted in, and that was how to be a friend while at the same time not get caught up in someone else’s stuff to the degree that you became an enabler or join in the gossip or criticism yourself. Jesus always remained focused on the bigger picture and continually pointed people to a solution rather than more of the muck.

For instance, when the disciples were trying to outrank each other on who should be the Top Dog once Jesus was gone (Mark 9:33-34), Jesus asked them what they were arguing about outside as they were walking. By this time, they were in somebody’s home and it says that Jesus called the guys together and then proceeded to tell them how to become the greatest if that is what they wanted to know. They had been embarrassed when he had asked them about it cause they didn’t think he could have possibly heard them. Ha! He did better than that….he read their thoughts!

Anyway, Jesus didn’t retaliate and blast them by saying something like, “Why are you playing that game? That is not what this is about! Knock it off!” (That’s what I probably would have said anyway) But instead he says, ok, if you want to be #1 then you have to be the last one in line and serve everyone you meet along the way. Silence. Crickets chirping. And then he picks up one of the little children of the home and uses that child as an example. Huh! I thought we were talking about greatness here? He was! Smile.

I so admire his patience and wisdom here. He used their anxieties and showed them a completely different way of thinking about it. So cool.

Another time after he had fed the multitudes, he and the disciples are on a boat afterwards and the guys are whining AGAIN but this time about the fact that they forgot to bring something to eat along. Hello guys….he had just fed 5000 people with a little bit AND you had a bunch of leftovers. What happened to the leftovers? Did they go and leave the doggy bags behind like I have at restaurants sometimes? Or did that excess suddenly seem like not enough? They were sitting with The Bread of Life in the boat! I love this quote from a blog I recently read about this very portion of scripture, “…but instead of rolling his eyes and pushing them overboard so he could be alone with his sanity…” he reminds them of the excess and that he didn’t only provide enough, he provided more than enough and he would do that again and again.

I then just realized Jesus was constantly confronted with people’s drama. Yes, many came with real needs but sometimes they also came with a pity party. Like Martha complaining about Mary not helping her out enough. Or the Pharisees complaining about how the disciples didn’t keep some Law but instead chose to help someone of all the nerve. I can’t even imagine how exhausted Jesus must have been at times.

Jesus was tempted countless times in these situations to be impatient, to be rude, and to use his power for his own convenience, to scream at them to go away but he never once did. He just loved them, listened and showed them a better way to live and a better way to think about things. But trust me, He well understands how draining these people can be.

The difference between Him and us (one of MANY!) is that Jesus truly could help every situation and we sometimes can’t much. We can choose to not surround ourselves with Drama Kings and Queens but sometimes we have to.

There is much to consider here.

Those kinds of people may seem to be almost thriving in those situations because of the attention they get, but really, they aren’t at all. They are in a mess in it. They are overwhelmed and do not know what to do about their mess. Their own negativity is eating them alive. They need Jesus. And sometimes, they may know about Jesus, like the disciples, but they may not yet have a clue that they can give Him all their mess and He will sort it out. They may not yet have the faith to believe there is another way to live. They may not yet understand the concept that Jesus cares about every single part of their life and that they can talk to Him about every part of their life.

Sometimes the Drama Kings or Queens only want to hear themselves talk and you can’t get a word in edgewise. As their friend, or neighbor or co-worker at that point, what you can do is become a mighty prayer warrior on their behalf. Don’t ever underestimate the power in prayer. Be a source of calm and peace yourself.

One other sensitive area here: We may have a Drama Person in our life that is driving us crazy and we then turn around and tell everyone else about that Person and WE end up being a Drama Person ourselves. Ouch. Someone that other people don’t want to be around.

Jesus never got sucked to their negativity; He just poured out love and solutions. Obviously, millions today want nothing to do with Him but as the Great Physician, he will always be the answer. He can calm the storm, still the wind and waves. He knows how much we can handle and He has not left us on our own. There IS rest and peace with Him.

So, you saw someone from your former church and hid…..

I want to address some fairly common situations which those of us who have left a church group (such as the meetings) might face and how to better deal with them through insight, prayer and the strength and comfort of Scripture.

I am sure I’m not the only one who has ducked behind something or into another aisle in the store after seeing people from the old church, to avoid a confrontation with them.  And I just didn’t want them seeing me.

Why on earth would I feel this way?  Why would I react this way? These were once my people.  I have struggled with this for years, by the way.

At first, I believe the reason to hide was because I didn’t want them to see how I looked now. (Looking totally different than I did as part the church under their strict dress code.)  I knew they would not approve at all of how I looked and would be disappointed and judge me and/or be hurt that I had chosen such.  I didn’t want to see their pitying glances or the sadness in their eyes.  I didn’t want to be confronted with the confusion, disappointment or sadness I may have caused them because of my choices.  And the smugness of a few.

But still, I wanted their approval, even though I was the one who had left and changed, I wanted their approval but I knew I no longer had it.  And that was painful and hard to face.

In the church we sang the hymn, “Approved of God, what more could we desire?”  Well, the approval of others that’s what.  It’s very real and feeds a person’s insecurities enormously.  But another hymn in that group states a very real truth I found out:  “Honor from men is but a passing show.”  When I left I discovered who my real friends were and who weren’t.  It was painful seeing some ‘drop me’ when I still reached out to them.  I found out I was loved by some because of the ‘office’ I held in that group, not because of who I am.

Truth is; it’s easier often to have God’s approval
than the approval of others. 

But you know what also happened?  As the approval of others faded and all but disappeared, the approval of God became more tangible, available and possible.  Truth is; it’s easier often to have God’s approval than the approval of others.  I had a serious talk with God about this matter, to find out why the approval of others meant so much to me.  God took their approval away from me for a reason.  Staying in this group because of fear of what others would think or say if you left, is not being honest with yourself or God.

Also, let me state clearly that I have been very guilty of judging them. Big time. I now pray OFTEN to cease from judging them and pray that they would cease from judging me.  Neither side wins in judging.  I never want to have any hint of a spirit of arrogance or pride around them but also not to have a spirit of fear.

Oh God, why are we still trying to win the approval of others more than You?  May we let go of needing and/or wanting their approval in order to feel secure or safe because, like Your Word says, if we are still trying to please others, we will not be a servant of Christ.  It’s not a sin to have others approval but it sure puts us in bondage to seek it.  Help us to always keep loving our friends and family from our old church and cease from trying to please them because we have found, by Your Grace, it’s truly easier to obtain Your approval than it is theirs.  Help us, Father, to never be ashamed of the liberty and freedom we now have in Christ because we truly have been set free. You said to Jeremiah to ‘not be afraid of them for You are with us and You will rescue us’. Your Word also assures us that it is Your Perfect Love that will cast out our fear.  We thank you for that and cling to Your promises now more than ever before because they are SURE and STEADFAST. 

Bible Journaling

You guys, I am SO excited that I simply have to share with you my newest hobby/project. Yesterday, I stumbled across this post from a blog I read called Illustrated Faith.

It is a site about Bible Journaling.  I fell in love immediately!  I opened every single link and just got more and more excited.  Years ago I had ordered a NKJV journaling Bible. (It is a regular Bible with 2 plus inch margins with lines on each page for journaling.)  I have been making notes there for a while now; what a particular Scripture meant to me on a certain date and why.  But now, I can decorate those pages!!  On that website I found a book I also ordered from Amazon:

Writing in the Margins: Connecting with God on the Pages of Your Bible by Lisa Nichols Hickman

Now, most of us reading this have been taught that we would NEVER hardly even write in our Bible’s let alone decorate!  But as I read some of the posts on that original site, the gals that were journaling in their Bibles with art stuff found that they were meditating on the words all the while they were working on their pages, so it did indeed become a time of worship.

To get TONS of other ideas, check out this on Pinterest.

I know this will only resonate with a few of you but those it does will definitely give a few of you the bug!  I am not artistic at all but I have been a scrapbook-er for years and I intend to use scrapbook supplies.  Those who are more artistic can use paints, pens, whatever.  I just think it will be such fun.  Am going shopping this weekend!!

Sleepless nights…

Ahhhh, I’ve reached that stage in life where I do not sleep well most nights.  Up and down. Knees hurt, feet hurt.  I hate taking pills stronger than an Advil so this is not a cry for sleep aids!!

What I do want to write about though is one thing that does help me get back to sleep when I am not dealing with the aching knees or gouty feet.

I pick a verse(s) of Scripture and say it over and over in my mind and it almost always settles me down, calms any anxieties or fears and I go back to sleep.  Isaiah 26:3 says “You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trust in You.”  It works; it truly does. The other night when I was worrying about all the evil in the world/this country/my town, right down to my neighborhood, the verse that came to mind was John 14:1 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me.”

 Philippians 4:6 says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”  Be anxious about nothing but pray about everything.  I have literally been doing this for quite some time now and it is a WONDERFUL tool that works amazingly.

I don’t know why, but I didn’t cling to the promises of God, of Jesus, literally, when I was going to meetings like I do now.  I don’t think too many others did either.  The reason I say that is because now when I might mention to a professing friend or relative how I am now literally putting God’s Word to the test, they are noticeably uncomfortable.  Are they uncomfortable because I am the one quoting Scripture and I shouldn’t be because I now have no right to do that because I don’t go to meetings anymore? Or are they uncomfortable because I am using Scripture in my every day conversation? Or would they be uncomfortable talking about any Scripture outside of a meeting setting?  I don’t know.  I wonder if I was still going to meetings and was talking about Scripture to the degree I am writing about, how it would be received.  I don’t know the answer to that either.

Another verse I pray often is “Deliver me from evil.”  Jesus suggested we pray that and I do.  I have been praying that for years now.

Another source of help I discovered a while back that helps me rest at night is a wonderful book of prayers called Yours is the Day, Lord….Yours is the Night” by Jeanie and David Gushee.  In the introduction of this book, the authors write:  This book “includes Christian prayers from every continent in the habitable world.  We primarily designed it with individuals in mind, to assist Christians in their daily prayer times with God.  This book is not meant to serve as a substitute for spontaneous Christian prayers but as a springboard for them.  We hope you will use these morning prayers as we do — as a way to wake up and greet the new day with God, inspired by the noble aspirations of some of the heroes of the faith, followed by talking with God about the feelings in our own hearts. The evening prayers close the day, asking for God’s blessing as we lose ourselves to sleep.  We find that they combine nicely with a personal prayer as we drift off, thanking God for the good aspects of the day just concluded.”  What I love the most is the authors of the prayers they have compiled span decades and centuries.  I love the honest and often eloquent prayers of individuals who may have lived centuries ago and yet obviously had a very real and relevant relationship with God.

I want to conclude this post by copying a few of the evening prayers I love the most.  Again, I highly recommend this book.  It is beautiful.

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For New Year’s Day it was:

Grant, O Lord,
That as the years change,
I may find rest in Your eternal changelessness
secure in the faith that,
while we come and go,
and life changes around us,
You are always the same,
Guiding us with Your wisdom,
and protecting us with Your love.

Amen    (William Temple 1881-1944)

Watch, dear Lord,
with those who wake, or watch, or weep tonight,
and give Your angels charge over those who sleep.
Tend Your sick ones, O Lord Christ.
Rest Your weary ones.
bless your dying ones,
soothe Your suffering ones,
pity your afflicted ones,
shield your joyous ones,
and all for Your love’s sake.

Amen (Augustine of Hippo 354-430)

Lord,
Abide with me,
Fast falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens,
Lord, with me abide;
When other helpers fail
And comforts flee,
Help of the helpless,
O abide with me.

Amen (Henry Francis Lyte 1793-1847)

Calm me, O Lord, as You stilled the storm
Still me, O Lord; keep me from harm.
Let all the storms within me cease.
Enfold me, Lord, in Your peace.

Amen (Celtic prayer)

O Merciful God, eternal light, shining in darkness…
since Thou has appointed the night for rest and the day for labor,
we beseech Thee grant that our bodies may rest in peace and quietness,
that afterward they may be able to endure the labor they must bear….
Defend us against all the assaults of the devil and take us
Into Thy holy protection.
And although we have not passed this day
without greatly sinning against Thee,
we beseech Thee to hide our sins with Thy mercy,
as Thou hidest all things on Earth with the darkness of the night….
through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Amen (John Calvin 1509-1564)

 

Christmas posts Old & New

Hmmmmmm….that is a play on words to some of you!  Anyway, I re-released a Christmas post I wrote last year and it is right below this one. Because it was released last year, the notice does not go out to let you know there is a new post.   I’m planning on writing a new (hence the “new” part of Posts Old & New) before Christmas…honest!  I have a super busy day at work today as well as next Monday and Tuesday but then I have 5 days off (hurray!) so am dreaming about time to reflect, pray, read and write!

More later!

Christmas is coming!

“Joy to the world, the Lord has come!”  Those words mean so much to me now since I have left the meetings (they did before but we were discouraged from acknowledging Christmas songs about Jesus). But now, I can truly celebrate Christmas and it has brought me so much joy every year.

Since most of my readers have an association with the meeting church, you will know Christmas was ignored for the most part. Certainly the part that had anything to do with Jesus and His birth.  The fellowship leaves Christ out of Christmas and that, to me, is one of the greatest ironies of all.  I now find it very sad….and strange.

The explanation given was “we celebrate the birth of Christ every day and we don’t know the exact date of his birth anyway.” So, therefore celebrating Christmas was wrong because that is what religious people do,

The truth is, the birth of Christ was hardly ever talked about except in an occasional Gospel meeting.  The death of Christ was every Sunday morning during communion.  Of course, folks could have given thanks often for Jesus birth in their private prayers.  During my journey the last 10 years whenever I would come to the Christmas question in my mind, here was my conclusion.

Most churches agree that we don’t know the exact date of Jesus’ birth.  The date has been ‘established’ in history but the date isn’t the point of the holiday — Jesus is.  There simply cannot be anything wrong with the Christian’s devoting a day to collectively give thanks for the greatest day of all time; the birth of Jesus.  For Him to hear a loud “Halleluiah! Praise Him!  He is born!“, must bring Him great joy.  He must surely thrill at the sound of Christmas songs being sung in His Honor and glory throughout the world in churches, homes, and cars, wherever!

The first year I went to a church during the holiday season and we sang songs like Silent Night, O Holy Night, Away in a Manger, O Little Town of Bethlehem, I wept with sheer joy at the beauty and privilege of finally getting to sing those songs collectively.  I love Christmas Eve services; the room of the sanctuary is absolutely gorgeous with lights, candles, decorations. We all light candles and sing praises to Him and hear the old old story once again.

It saddens me that the friends totally leave Christ out of Christmas, like much of the world does.  The friends will sometimes exchange gifts, and some are brave enough to have Christmas trees.  I remember clearly in the mid 1960’s here on the West Coat of the US, the workers suddenly decided that Christmas trees were unlawful.  Up until then, we always had one!  What on earth???

The very fact fact that the two most celebrated Christian holidays, Christmas and Easter, are ones the friends and workers find pagan and refuse to acknowledge, is just wrong!

OK….now that I’ve had my say, let me share what Christmas means to me this year in particular.

I am really feeling the need of Christmas this year. I keep thinking of, and listening to, Amy Grant’s song, “I need a Silent Night, a Holy Night. To hear an angel sing in the chaos and the noise. I need a midnight clear, a little hope right here.”  I need the spirit, the comfort, the beauty, the decorations, the lights, the ambiance of Christmas now. Maybe more than ever before. I put my outside lights up last weekend. I couldn’t wait. I need to be enveloped in that part of it. Not the commercialism of it but the holiness, beauty and spirit of it.  Hearth and home, as my boss often refers to the holidays. I like that.

I thought I was going to have the best Christmas ever this year because I thought I’d be sharing it with a someone, but that dream did not come true.  I don’t yet know with whom I am celebrating it with or if I will be alone. But we are never truly alone, are we.

 

The Calling to be Single

I want to write a bit about the calling to be single.  I am so thankful that 1 Corinthians 7 talks about being single as well as those who are married, or widowed.  Verse 17 says, “Each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him.”

Verses 32-35 say:  IAn unmarried man is concerned about the Lord’s affairs—how he can please the Lord.  But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife— 3and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband. I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.”

I love the admonition:  For unmarried men — Be concerned about the Lord’s affairs.  For unmarried women – Be concerned about the Lord’s affairs.  Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit.  I personally love that last phrase.  And then for both groups, “that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.”  That is a beautiful calling if you ask me.

One last subject I want to address, something I had to deal with when leaving the Work, and then even more so when I eventually left the meetings altogether, is what I did with the new found freedom I had.  As I was slowly discovering the Gospel of Grace, I became more and more aware that God was not judging me on my outward appearance but rather on my heart and its motives and desires.  So, little by little I stepped into some of those new areas of freedom as far as my appearance went and it was so much fun and so liberating!  I felt feminine and pretty as never before.  I knew the group disapproved but, contrary to what they assumed, it was not an act of rebellion but an act of freedom.

In other areas of freedom, yes, I tried some previously “sinful” things but gradually, I came to the same conclusion that Paul did when he wrote, “Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial.  Everything is permissible but not everything is constructive. Nobody should seek his own good, but the good of others.” 1 Corinthians 10: 23-24 in my NIV Bible, the heading over these verses is “The Believer’s Freedom”.  Paul goes on to write “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”  That is grace; not manmade rules or living by the expectations of others but making all choices in light of whether or not it will be for the glory of God.  That whole section in that chapter (verses 23-33) is so clear about this matter. “Why should my freedom be judged by another’s conscience?”  

Have I made some foolish choices and decisions since leaving the Work and leaving the fellowship? Of course. But leaving both of these were not among them.  I am still a work in progress. Just this morning I was giving thanks to God for His forgiveness and mercy shown to me over and over again when I have been rebellious, foolish, stubborn, unkind, unloving, impatient, judgmental, critical and even cynical at times.  For my lack of faith and trust in Him at times.  But He has stood by me no matter what and been  a very real Presence in my life and has assured me over and over again that I am not alone.

Praise be to Him forever and forever. Amen.