Sherlene is here with me and last night we were talking about the blog and realized it has been a little over a year since it went live. Happy Anniversary! In that time there have been over 35,000 views. That is wonderful! I know in the blog world this # is barely a ripple in the pond but the pond I’m fishing in isn’t very big. I’m not into #’s at all anyway; the only reason I mention it at all is because I love how many people it is reaching.
It humbles me and also encourages and inspires me. I have found so much joy the past year in the praying/waiting/writing process, not to mention the joy of reading the comments and bits of your journey you have shared. I only wish more people commented but I know the reason so many are in the shadows.
I do pray that the very fact there is fear about disclosure would cause you to stop and think! Think about what you might be afraid of and who you are afraid of. Are those fears what you really want to be governed by? Are those fears what people would say or think mattering more to you then what the Lord says or thinks? Is the approval of man what you are after or the approval of God?
When Paul asked himself if he was truly trying to win the approval of men or God in Galatians 1:10, he concluded that if he was still trying to please others (meaning he had been living that way previously) he would not be a servant of Christ. Those are searching words. It is not a sin to have others approval but it’s slavery to seek it.
And someone once said that God’s approval is easier to get then man’s. So very true but certainly not the way I used to think. Most of us were taught God was nigh unto impossible to please and only on extremely rare occasions when when He answered one of my little prayers (I say little because I’ve learned since how much more I can ask of Him) and I would be so touched because it meant that in some small way I had for a moment won His approval.
Never did I give a thought to Jesus’ words that our Father loves to give good gifts to His children nor to the fact that because of Jesus’ life, death and Resurrection He now sees me as 100% righteous all the time!! I have His approval even though I’m still a sinner. Amazing! Yes, it is called GRACE!
I plead with you to ask yourself and God the difficult questions. Jesus told us to do just that. Asking difficult questions of God doesn’t mean you are doomed. It doesn’t mean you will have to leave the meetings. Everyone’s journey is different and who knows where God needs/wants you to be. What it does mean is that in the process of asking God those difficult questions about where you might have doubts and fears, you will undoubtedly get to know God better in the process. And that is always a good thing!