Recently I have become aware, we were taught in the meeting culture to doubt God. I doubted many things about Him and about His Word, and yet I don’t think anyone would willingly admit that. I wouldn’t. The prayer of the man in the Gospel’s who said to Jesus, “Lord, I believe….help my unbelief”, is a prayer I should have been praying for decades. I do now!
What do I mean? Here is a list I came up with of areas I/we doubted:
- God’s love
- Our salvation
- God’s Power
- God’s forgiveness
- God’s Grace
- How He sees us
- Our identity in Christ
- Our calling in Christ
- Our gifting
- Freedom in Christ
- Answered prayers/answers to prayer
- Open doors/closed doors
- Christ’s completed work for us
- God’s promises
- Whether He was really enough
- His ability to help in difficult situations
- That He wants to hear about all of my life
- That He will help & intercede in all areas of my life
- That He could make me whole
Jesus said in Matthew 21:21-22 “If you have faith and do not doubt…if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask in prayer.” That is an amazing promise. Do I believe it?
He said to Peter in Matthew 14:31, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” I don’t want my precious Jesus to keep asking me that question.
The very first thing Satan did to humanity in the garden was to raise doubts.
John the Baptist had doubts (Luke 7:18-23) but “his doubts were natural and Jesus didn’t rebuke him for them. Instead, he responded in a way that John would understand. God can handle our doubts, and he welcomes our questions. Only as you face your doubts honestly can you begin to resolve them. “ (NIV Life Application Study Bible)
I might take some of those items listed above and write about them more later but for now, it was good for me to spend some time thinking about how and why I doubted God’s love for me.
Jeremiah 31:3 says, “God loves us with an everlasting love.” John 15:9 Jesus said, “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.”
Remain there. Don’t wander away from that love. Don’t mess it up. I doubted that He loved me all the time and that His love was unconditional. I found it so hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I didn’t have to earn His love. I couldn’t even begin to grasp how deep, wide, long His love for me was. If I had, I would have been a much more secure person and wouldn’t have needed the approval of others so much. I would have been able to love others uncondionally. Also, I would have known more joy and peace in my life.
Everyone flourishes when they feel truly loved and yet somehow in the meeting group, the love of God was downplayed. I remember hearing things like, ‘Sure, God loves us. He loves everyone, even those He has to send to a lost eternity.’ One man said, ‘You can always tell when someone is about ready to quit professing because they start talking about the love of God all the time.’ In a sense, that is true because some of us started learning and experiencing God’s love for the first time then.
Doubts keep God very small in our minds, which in turn keeps our joy small and keeps our own one-on-one experiences with Him very far and few between. Doubts make us anxious and preoccupied with what we think we need to do to orchestrate events rather than trusting God to do it. Doubting saps our strength spiritually and even physically because we are in such a negative place. We can’t see the miracles of God in our lives or the hand of God everywhere.
I need to bring all my doubts to the Light and let that Light dispel all the darkness.
Satan has capitalized on this one big time in the group and it is tragic. We CAN take God literally. We CAN take His Word literally. Take His promises literally. We CAN trust Him.
May we bring all of our doubts to Him and may He, through His Word and His Spirit, remove them.